shutlow! art, poetry, and ephemera.

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my dearest darling followers and friends, it is my deepest regret to inform you that i will be...

Dec 9th

the last of my adventures in lettering. ink. i don’t...

Dec 8th

“we all go round and round partners are lost and found...”
— all i know is, we’re all...

Dec 8th

KAIT. MEZZOPIANO.

i just got your birthday voicemail, because i am terrible with anything having to do with cellphones...

Dec 8th

endofmarch: cold selfportrait (via 1-800-color) this is...

Dec 8th

my brother and i are singing poker face...

clearly we have the perfect sibling relationship. CAN’T READ MY CAN’T READ MY NO YOU...

Dec 8th

Dec 8th

the thing about happiness:

you have to find it for yourself. you have to be prepared to see it and appreciate it and let it...

Dec 8th

happily, i’ve been really inspired by jessica hische...

Dec 7th

currently:

using an old university of portland textbook to study calculus writing the penultimate scene of...

Dec 7th

i worry too much.

Dec 7th

jasmine, i love these!

but drive safely, aha. thinkkdifferent: i’m reckless. i take pictures while i drive. my...

Dec 7th

i have a headache.

and i’m full of this awful tension, like i’m constantly on the verge of being upset at...

Dec 7th

i just wrote a post and then deleted it.

because i just had to get it out but then decided i didn’t need anyone to read it. do you ever...

Dec 7th

remember, we all love in different ways. photography by me....

Dec 7th

i'm aching for contact.

i don’t mean much. just someone to warm the space next to me, and breathe.

Dec 7th

“If you do not breathe through writing, if you do not cry out...”
— Anais Nin...

Dec 7th

casimirpulaskiday : frenchiejane : sabino ...

Dec 7th

miscellaneous haiku.

because i don’t have the energy for anything longer. walking in the cold even as i feel my...

Dec 6th

songs i have been singing lately:

nantes, beirut crooked teeth, death cab for cutie i will follow you into the dark, also death...

Dec 6th

to creativity:

darling-i: darling, i love you because you’re always there. you’re always present, reassuringly,...

Dec 6th

last one. ink again.

Dec 6th

more ink. yes, i caved and drew a polaroid. it was bound to...

Dec 6th

ink.

Dec 6th

told you i was going to try some typography :D yeah, i made...

Dec 6th

I WANT TO LIVE

WHERE SOUL MEETS BODY! i’m in a good mood today.

Dec 6th

you know the feeling when you've been...

i just got that. a flash of insight. inspiration. i’m going to be writing all night.

Dec 6th

and then i colored it. trying a new style. touchpad mouse,...

Dec 5th

all i hope, i hope, i hope,

is that you find some meaning in my words, some solace in my thoughts, some truth in the life that i...

Dec 5th

DA NA NA NA NA NA NA. ballpoint pen. i drew these fellows...

Dec 5th

illustrativo : nevver : Simplicity i’ve...

Dec 5th

i wish more people put their emails on...

there are quite a few folks i’d like to write to but have no way of contacting. :[

Dec 5th

illustrativo : boniii 1. i really like this. 2. i...

Dec 5th

oh, follow-up:

i don’t think today’s youth are disappointing at all— what i think is...

Dec 5th

i was going to write a really long essay...

and how most media aimed at us— that is, kids between the ages of 13-19— is so dumbed...

Dec 5th

eff oh arr em ess pee arr aye en gee:

wanted to make the title more interesting. don’t know if i succeeded. anyway, it’s been...

Dec 5th

the most beautiful online comic ever.

Dec 5th

endofmarch : mypeterpancomplex : little gold...

Dec 5th

i am absurdly happy today.

so happy. you have no idea. shine on, darling, shine on.

Dec 5th

“but what about love?”
— js, in class today.

Dec 5th

re: if this day could get any better...

thoughtitudes: so today, i leaped i soared. but i came back to earth. today i leaped and i landed,...

Dec 5th

well. i woke up a half-hour early.

time to finish my homework, i guess. i’m not going back to sleep. good morning, world.

Dec 4th

(via theroomaboveher) i love this.

Dec 4th

dearest,

all of portland knows how much i love you. even the guy at the sandwich cart, putting together our...

Dec 4th

i didn't skip it.

hey princesskeroline. darling. darling, darling, darling. i love you so much, and i know...

Dec 4th

hey everyone, read this post / support the...

Dec 4th

gpoyw? late, i know. but i felt like i should post it today...

Dec 4th

birthday

they tell you you’re older, and it becomes more than a day, but also the period of...

Dec 4th

Watch

carolynnnnnnn: to my darling shutlow although i haven’t known you for very long, i do know that...

Dec 3rd

idea-obscura : flickflickflicker :...

Dec 3rd

submit a love letter to "darling, i-- !"

Dec 3rd

12:20; thoughts.

i’m sitting in my room listening to the midnight trains call back and forth to each other,...

Dec 3rd

tfail: Natural Dark - Lindsey Carr aka Little Robot i...

Dec 3rd

i came up with things to say.

1. i feel like my vague thank yous aren’t enough. a whole lot of love is in order. so…...

Dec 3rd

oh wait no one more thing--

i just got asked to do a gallery show. :D it would go up in may and stay for a few months or so....

Dec 3rd

i'm doing well.

i’m feeling better. i found my buddha necklace, which was really great; i’m feeling more...

Dec 3rd

“raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens / bright copper...”
— i was singing this today,...

Dec 3rd

hey hey on the bright side.

this afternoon i was helping out the art department with some submissions to a local (well, ish,...

Dec 2nd

photo by elio. the moon was so beautiful tonight.

Dec 2nd

js: so what's this i hear about you being depressed?
lotus: oh. castles told you?
js: about seven or eight people have told me.
lotus: oh. why are they all telling you?
js: they said i should hold your hand.
lotus: i don't know if that would help right now.
js: that's what i said.
lotus: thanks, though.

Dec 2nd

oh and followers/new followers:

i have something to say to you. thanks for sticking with me here. i realize the urge to unfollow...

Dec 2nd

in case you're wondering what it's like...

i’m busy writing down my breakdown so that i’ll remember how it feels later. i’m...

Dec 2nd

dearest, i'm going to do my best to be...

that’s all i can say, for now.

Dec 2nd

(via cacaococoa) i could.

Dec 2nd

well, wasn't that the prettiest thing...

i hope you all went out and looked at the moon. it was gorgeous then; a glorious yellow coin sitting...

Dec 2nd

GO OUTSIDE AND LOOK AT THE MOON.

do it right now. it’s huge and yellow and beautiful.

Dec 2nd

it's two in the morning.

i’ve bypassed slightly unreasonable and i should really go to sleep now, and gone straight for...

Dec 1st

to myself:

darling-i: darling, i love you because you are trying. you are working. you are a messy beautiful...

Dec 1st

essentially:

i haven’t done my calculus homework yet, which is awful, because we just started ...

Dec 1st

“rabbit, rabbit.”
— happy first of december,...

Dec 1st